Thanks everyone again for checking on me. Its been a strange week. The social worker came to collect my daughters stuff. I had a good chat with her, she is so nice. I get the feeling she is dissapointed. I know she wanted DD back with us. Its mad home is where she should be. But likewise I cannot handle any more dramas or anymore stress. I worry one day in the future & when she is older. I worry that she will hate me, that she will not see that I was driven to letting her go. That I could not take anymore. Will she feel rejected, will she see it as rejection?. Even though I feel & know I could not take anymore. At the beginning of the week she sent me texts saying I was a crap mum & that she would make a much better mother. Amongst all the other texts that were hurtfull & name calling. I did not respond. We have not spoken once. I find it hard as she does not seem to appear to care about her family, her brother. Not once has she rang my mum& dad or her auntie. I guess I feel kinda strange.
I had lunch with my good neighbour yesterday. Today I have tidied & cleaned!. I did homework with my son yesterday got a bit carried away and virtually did it ooops!. Still looking out for a job. Finances are dire but I am not spending as they are so dire.
This weekend will be spent doing whatever turns up. Have a lovely weekend my kind bloggers. You have really helped x x