I am not having a good day today. I am feeling full of anxiety, headachey & feeling sorry for myself. Which is terrible as there are so many sad things going on in the news.
I am just thinking about stuff . DD to be honest she is staying with us a couple a days a week every week. Everything is peachy & we are all getting on. But I cant help but be sad, as it wasn't how I wanted my family to be . I wanted us all together. But no I couldn't cope with the challenges that my very challenging daughter brought. They were extreme challenges I think I will always have hang ups and sadness about it all. Its the going over things that gives me the anxiety. I was always nervous as a youngster about different things
Coupled with depression & anxiety I find it hard ......... Coupled with feeling like the worst mother in the world because I couldn't control my daughter & she wouldn't listen to me anyway. Its hard to explain it all. But its like feeling like you have been in the washing machine for a very long time, you feel rung out. I am finding it hard to be positive & move forward.