We finally made it.....

Hi just dropping in to say hi & we made It here. We arrived 4 weeks ago . It was a very very stressful lead up to the move.  I said goodbye to my neighbours which was so hard for me. I know it's not like I would never see them again.  They were such good friends.  The day before the move Hubby suggested that I go and stay with my mum for the night. He knew I would be emotional. The joys of being emotional!.  

I am not really being Mrs No Spend as all we seem to be doing is spending on doing up the flat at the moment.   It's official we are mortgage free. It sort of feels like we are on holiday .  The pictures are from the balcony. We get lots of kite surfers going past, speed boats & lots of swimmers.  

I would have posted sooner but had no Internet and then my digital camera broke.  I invested in an ipad as I can use it for pictures.  

Thank you for checking up on me & thank you Mrs Sft for checking in on me xxx

It has been stressful and I seem to be permanently tired at the moment, but I guess I have to accept that I am a bit of a anxious person and I need to work on these things.  

But there is nothing like the smell of sea air and the sound of the waves. You can her the waves none morning and evening more as we do still have a road in front that is quite busy being a coast road.

The flat has just been plastered.     Xxxxx

Not having a good day today

I am not having a good day today.  I am feeling full of anxiety, headachey & feeling sorry for myself. Which is terrible as there are so many sad things going on in the news.
I am just thinking about stuff . DD to be honest she is staying with us a couple a days a week every week.  Everything is peachy & we are all getting on.  But I cant help but be sad, as it wasn't how I wanted my family to be . I wanted us all together. But no I couldn't cope with the challenges that  my very challenging daughter brought. They were extreme challenges  I think I will always have hang ups and sadness about it all.  Its the going over things that gives me the anxiety.  I was always nervous as a youngster about different things
Coupled with depression & anxiety I find it hard ......... Coupled with feeling like the worst mother in the world because I couldn't control my daughter & she wouldn't listen to me anyway. Its hard to explain it all.  But its like feeling like you have been in the washing machine for a very long time, you feel rung out.  I am finding it hard to be positive & move forward. 
   

Monday Mini Goals

Healthy Eating - Fail
I failed miserably at my goals.  I didn't keep a track of what I was eating whatsoever. I ended up eating too much chocolate & as we ran down the freezer the food choice was limited.  The scenario ran out of so many things. A birthday etc , pissed off etc

Tea drinking - Fail 
I ended up drinking way too many teas. The reason I cut back on tea was that I do have issues with anxiety. I  read lots of places to cut back on the caffeine as it can add to the anxiety even more. 
 
Water Drinking - Fail
Managed 1 litre on a few days

Tracking Spending - Fail
Managed one day . 

I don't seem to be very good at tracking anything. I do think tracking does make you more accountable as if you write something down it is written down!

Sometimes I wonder why I blog too. I look at my blog and think who on earth would want to read any ramblings on from me.  Think I am having one of those days. So much for my positive affirmations eh!.  I look at my blog and think gosh it sounds dull.  Its hard getting the balance of what to share & what not to share. 
I don't know ............

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Be back later !

Monday Monday ....

Today I went swimming in the morning. Did my 52 lengths (small lengths!). The pool was quiet only two of us in there.  Went & did my after swim ritual shampoo/conditioner/lime shower gel & a nice slather of body lotion. I felt squeaky clean!

Spending for today

Raspberry still water x 4 pack                                           £3.96
Lucozade Revive Lemon grass & ginger 4 pack
Big bottle of Ribena
3 x bottles of oasis

Bus fare                                                                            £2.30

Sunflower spread                                                               £5.59
Nutty Superfood salad & apple,celery & walnut salad
4 pint semi skimmed milk

I Bought the drinks in the pound shop as you get so much more for your money.  I usually have my sports bottle filled with water . Mr No Spend likes a few drinks in the fridge. I think I have touched on this before that Mr No Spend is not always No Spend!
Later on when I got home my sweet neighbour knocked on my front door with a lovely little heart tin with a white musk solid perfume inside (looks like lip gloss but not!) Smells lovely.  She asked if I wanted anything from M&S which I did so I went along for the ride and got my bits.  I bought a lovely couple of salads.  I do need to learn to make a salad, as tasty as an M&S one especially the superfood one.
I made a date slice as am having a few friends over for a coffee morning tmrow & I had some dates that had gone a bit tough & chewy so date slice was the ideal choice!. I am very proud I didn't even try it!. I will have to take their word or see by the look on their faces (good I hope!!). I gave the place a good spruce up & hoovered up a few cobwebs ( hangs head in shame that they had even formed!). I don't live in a haunted cobweb house honest!.
Going to watch broadchurch tonight too!..

Food for today
Breakfast
muesli
banana
Lunch
apple,celery & walnut salad
pear yoghurt with a few flaked almond on top
snack
8 dried apricots & 1 babybel
Dinner    
4 small roast potatoes,carrots, broccoli & a chicken
  
Managed to stick to 2 cups of tea &  managed 1 litre of water today

x

Monday Week mini goals

This coming week I want to be a bit more organized & make a few "Monday week mini goals"

Health goals
With all this lovely sunshine I feel it is an ideal time to put some health goals in place so this week my main goals are
To keep a close eye on what I am eating! That means this week no cakes, biscuits or chocolate.  Just healthy wholesome foods, keeping check on portion control.
Drink 2 litres of water a day
Only 2 cups of tea a day (this is more for my anxiety)
To swim twice this week
Read my anxiety book & start practising techniques

Spending Goals
To keep a track of spending ,every penny this week. I have been a bit spendy lately
Send electricity & gas meter readings in online
Sell my wardrobe!
Find more things to sell on ebay! (less to move when moving!)

Do you find it helpful to have mini goals?....

H

Lovely swim

Today I went for a lovely swim. It was lovely & heated in the pool.  I pay a monthly membership which is £42.00.  I try and go at least twice a week, occasionally three times.  I didn't go for a fortnight so very cross with myself.   I blame the cold weather and the thought of coming out in to the cold air was too much!.  I am happy to pay this monthly membership with no tie in as it is my luxury & wellbeing.  Not to mention it has strengthened my back muscles swimming & I no longer seem to get that bad back I always used to get before.  Think the ironing was not helping. But no this swimming has helped.  To me that is therapy!  After I went swimming I went shopping & bought a lovely sunhat for £4.00!. Here I am in my sunhat! .

I bought a lovely  navy blue polka dot purse for £4.00 which I needed as my other purse was tatty & dog eared & had gone saggy . My bank cards kept sliding out

 

I have all my loyalty cards on one side ie  superdrug, boots, costa coffee, co op ,waitrose etc. My important bank cards on the other side. It has a safe place for coins & notes very secure too! . On the front there is a little zip bit. I usually keep two paracetemol in my purse. I usually cut them off from the pack.  Saves having to buy them If you are out somewhere & need one.  Luckily I do not get many headaches thankfully. 

 

 

 

 

I also went to the pound shops & bought a small shampoo & conditioner. I like to take full advantage of the showers at the swimming pool. These ones have 0% parabans in them.  I like to get the chlorine out of my hair.

 
 I popped into M&S & got my favourite super food nutty salad its delicious, has a real nutty flavour.  I also bought a seeded roll In M&S on its own toasted it & had some cream cheese on it.  A lovely cup of tea & a small piece of coffee cake. I am trying to exercise control round sweeter things. I find that if I tell myself I cant have something I crave it even more. So am trying to be controlled & sensible

I tried my new make - up out too.  They were doing if you spent over £12.00 you got a Bourjois blush pot free. My lipstick was £7.99 a lovely rouge colour to pucker those lips ups! A soft light gold eyeshadow £6.99, blush would have cost £7.49. Total was £14.98 for my 3 things.  I have bought cheaper cosmetics before & found that the blushers just break up and crack.  I love Aldi mascara. These will last me probably about a year!. I know there are cheaper cosmetics but I do like Bourjois.  I like to be careful with money but equally I like to buy things that I like & will use.  I go through stages where I spend nothing but equally sometimes I do like to buy a few things for myself. I bought Mr No Spend 2 packs of rice!  I sometimes feel guilty buying myself things too! & I know I shouldn't!

 Do you have an item or something you like to splurge on occasionally?! Please tell....!